Why Healing Feels Worse Before It Gets Better

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The Awareness Paradox: When Growth Hurts

Healing feels worse sometimes, and that realization can be incredibly discouraging. I used to believe that the path to wellness was a straight line of feeling slightly better every day. However, I eventually discovered the "Awareness Paradox": the more self-aware you become, the more you actually feel the pain you used to ignore.

“Ever feel worse after becoming more self-aware?” Most people don't realize that this isn't a sign of failure—it’s a sign of progress. This space, Not Just Me, is dedicated to these shared psychological hurdles. This post promises a vital perspective shift: feeling more doesn't mean you are breaking; it often means you are finally opening.


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This space at Not Just Me is dedicated to exploring how we move beyond the isolation of these conditions. This post explores how we can bridge that gap through integration and Mind Body Wellness.

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The Thaw: Why Hidden Pain Surfaces

When we are in survival mode, our nervous system performs a sort of "emotional triage." It numbs or suppresses overwhelming pain so we can keep functioning, working, and living. This is often referred to as a "functional freeze."

As you begin to practice Mind-Body Wellness and regulate your system, you are essentially telling your body that the environment is now safe. When the nervous system feels safe, it begins to "thaw." The emotions you avoided before—the old patterns, the hidden grief, the buried anger—start to surface because your system finally feels capable of processing them. Healing feels worse in this stage because you are finally present for the pain you previously outran.

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Visibility vs. Vulnerability

The middle stage of healing is often the most uncomfortable because old patterns become visible before they become changeable. You might find yourself:

  • Noticing how often you people-please while still feeling unable to stop.

  • Recognizing the physical sensation of anxiety before a spiral.

  • Feeling the weight of past experiences you thought you had "moved past."

This visibility creates a temporary sense of increased vulnerability. Common advice might tell you to "just stay positive," but that ignores the biological reality of emotional integration. You aren't "getting worse"; you are simply seeing the full picture for the first time. The cost of a higher level of consciousness is often a temporary period of discomfort as you outgrow your old survival strategies.





The Soojz Method: Navigating the Emotional Surge

To move through the period where healing feels worse, we must shift our focus from "fixing" to "containing."

Expand Your "Window of Tolerance"

Instead of trying to push the surfacing emotions back down, focus on expanding your capacity to hold them. This is done through tiny, manageable doses of exposure. If grief surfaces, give yourself five minutes to sit with it, then use a grounding tool to return to the present. You are training your nervous system that you can feel without being consumed.

Practice Somatic Witnessing

When you feel "worse," move the focus from the story in your head to the sensation in your body. Where does this "worse" live? Is it a tightness in the throat? A heaviness in the chest? By witnessing the sensation without judgment, you help the energy move through you rather than getting stuck in a loop of "Why do I feel this way?"

The Safety Affirmation

Remind your system why this is happening. Tell yourself: "I am feeling this because I am finally safe enough to process it." This reframes the pain from a "threat" to a "release," which lowers the secondary anxiety that often accompanies emotional surges.


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Real-World Integration: What I’ve Noticed Through Practice

In my real experiments with the Soojz Project, I noticed that my most "miserable" weeks of therapy or meditation were usually followed by my most profound periods of clarity. As an author and artist, I found that my creativity was often blocked by the very emotions I was trying not to feel. The "thaw" was uncomfortable, but it was the only way back to my craft.

I observed that when I stopped judging the "dip" in my mood as a regression, the dip actually lasted for a shorter amount of time. I realized that the "messy middle" of healing is where the real integration happens. By documenting the pain through my writing and art rather than fighting it, I was able to transform it into insight. I found that the discomfort wasn't a wall—it was a doorway.

I learned that we cannot selectively numb; when we shut down the pain, we inadvertently shut down our capacity for joy and inspiration, too. By allowing the "worse" feelings to surface, I finally regained access to the "better" ones. In my real-world testing, the only way around the pain was straight through the center of it.


"If silence is the blueprint for growth, then this music is the air that fills the room. Quiet Peace : Back to Me was born from the realization that I am my own safe haven." 




Trusting the Process: A Natural Conclusion

If healing feels worse right now, please hear this: you are not doing it wrong. You are simply doing the heavy lifting of emotional reclamation. At The Soojz Project, we believe that true integration requires us to walk through the fog, not just wait for it to clear.

Feeling more is a sign of a recovering heart. It means you are no longer a ghost in your own life. The discomfort you feel today is the growing pain of a soul that is expanding to hold more joy, more presence, and more truth. Keep going. You are safe enough to heal.

Your Action List:

  1. Reframe the Pain: When a hard emotion surfaces, say, "This is my system clearing space."

  2. Gentle Movement: Use walking or stretching to help the "thawed" energy move through your body.

  3. Rest Without Guilt: Processing old emotions is physically taxing. Give yourself permission to sleep more.

3 Key Takeaways:

  • Core Idea: Awareness makes old pain visible, which feels like a setback but is actually a breakthrough.

  • Practical Action: Use somatic witnessing to stay present with hard feelings without being overwhelmed.

  • Mindset Shift: Increased feeling is a sign of increased safety.

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